Why do people write???????????

Dew Drop..

2011-08-11T09:50:00.000-07:00

To reach my destiny
I rush from heaven
And wade through the unseen path

Looking for my destination
I travel along the skies
And pass through the unknown clouds

To get to my life
I roll as tiny grain
And skate invisible with the mist

With full grace
I fall down with all pride
As a new & few
DEW DROP…
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Question Mark????

2011-06-17T02:53:00.000-07:00

Manipulating the years of fear

These curves rule over me

Hooking to past

They drag into present

And hinder on future

I am being the one

For it to take the full form

Over me as “Question Mark”

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My Little Bell

2010-12-10T11:14:00.000-08:00

I wish to tell you everything
Just everything
Of all my love to you &
All sadness in missing you

I Hate you
For making me mad at you
By just being next to you
I enjoyed all smiles of world
Longing to be with you
I realized the value of tears

Being close with you
I understood that
Truth can hurt &
Lies can comfort

In your thoughts
I get comforted & lost
I can never give up
But I want to give it
Because I know how it feels
To lose the most desired gift
I can be a loser for you
But I can’t lose you

My Little Bell...
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Christmas Day mood..:))
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Loser...

2010-07-26T10:47:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to be new

I am a loser among few

In the fear of losing

I cover myself from all

When I look

Nobody understands

When I talk

Nobody listens

I am left unnoticed

With hidden tears

I rest on my own self

Looking for a consoling answer

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An infant's talk...:)

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Rain girl...

2010-05-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

With springy touch
Weary & tiring days were ruined
With spell of spray
Throbbing heat waves were sterilized

With little shower
The springing thirst were subsided
With rushing downstream
All suspended senses were resumed

With drizzling drops
Shadows romanticize
With shining wet floors
Legs skate & dance

Splashed & drenched
In the water of heaven
With taste of rain
Skipped, bounced & danced

As rain girl….
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Poured out these lines after the end of rainy days..:)))

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Shine on goodness...

2010-05-18T08:17:00.000-07:00

In my life’s every churning possibility
and with every passing second
I try to live as good as to all

With a dual role play of
my assumptions & perceptions
Things were conferred & printed
in the language of my thought & understanding

Scanning through it with an eagle’s eye
will never make anyone understand the essence of it
scraping it over the board of misunderstanding
will always mislead to the choice of rivals

You can draw your own world as you like
but not portraying me & my community as you like
I gave you the space & time
to understand the real picture

but you acting like the Lord of Lords
and changing the instances
can never bring down the world to your feet
and make anyone repent for mercy

Even if you have seen this world a year or day ahead of me
it doesn’t mean you are good enough to be praised
your tenure here is only terminated once for all on your birth date
but validated only based on your goodness

Bestow good to all
even at their worse
and your life will be hailed by happiness &
sealed by goodness…

Shine on goodness…

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Tried to be good to all. But sometimes I feel some people are not worth for us to be good to them. They just can't understand how & what we have been to them..:) When I thought everything was settled over an issue, I get to see that person going around and blaming people for mistake of their own..Since everyone are being good to us it doesn't mean we have or had been good to them at some point..You are being treated good even at your worse, its just because they are good..:)

Hug

2010-04-26T09:07:00.001-07:00

Hold me
Cover me
& hide me
In your big teddy hug
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Sometimes I feel I badly need one...:))))

Just a day...

2009-12-31T01:59:00.000-08:00

Just a day
To reminisce all the deeds
Just a day
To rejoice all the past
Just a day
To thank the present
Just a day
To pray for a future

Just a day
To think how I have been
For a year
Very close & very far to people
Just a day
In my world
To picture me for myself
For all the lived through days

Just a day
To thank all
Just a day
Of thoughts
That I take along with me
As a gleaming memories
Just a day
For the New Year to rise
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Cherishing 2009 & Cheering 2010…

Silence

2009-10-31T21:05:00.000-07:00

In my world of silence
I was lost so much
That I never heard my own talks
You just woke me up
And made me realize and feel myself

With more silence within me
I just missed to return much glee
With your simple touch
I sensed the mellow of goodness
And reciprocated the same to all

I can feel the transition in me
From stability of my thoughts
To harmony with my own self
I loved the resurrection of my world
You just made the difference

Now I feel I just reflect you
But not really
You are a steady taker of life
A blessed soul
Always real as you

You did everything & all wonders
Wish you take me along with you
And never leave me again
In the lost world
Of my enduring silence & pause

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Silence rules your thoughts & thoughts make your life…:)

Expressed the reflection of my thoughts in my own life.

My thoughts made the difference in me.

Wish to be positive & wish to enjoy each of my desire's bliss..

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Trust...

2009-10-25T06:54:00.000-07:00

With the plunge of restricted thoughts
I lose myself in the kingdom of fear
I am scared to open my eyes
To my brain’s inevitable picture of reality
Trying to run far from all these fearful thoughts
But I am confined

I wish to live
In a story of happy knot, but
Fear of losing
Fear of being hurt
Fear of being left alone
Makes me hide myself from reality

Showering all your love

You bestowed my life’s best part
Next to my man of first love
You were the one I couldn’t resist to be with
I fell for you very badly

You made me cry, it hurts; Help me stand up again

In the realm of happiness created for all
I am in probation of mine
I mask all my tears
And await a confirmation
I know I can make it
Only if you stand with me

I know my fears can’t be answered
Neither by you nor by me
But still
I believe in you
I believe in your love and
I trust you…

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Just like that. Felt like writing this after watching MOZHI before climax visual where prithviraj just walks to jyothika & talks about her fears. Just an imagination on her mind thoughts..:)

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Day of Lights...

2009-10-24T09:10:00.000-07:00

With new gleam of lights
The spirit of darkness was hollowed
In the radiance of divinity
Gloominess has reached its twilight

The loudness of purity
Spreads across happiness in infinity
All the dark dots of night
Are erased away in the day light
Celebrating the victory of the day
In glorious sparkling lights

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Day of lights - Diwali

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My Prayers..

2009-10-21T09:58:00.000-07:00

A language that I don’t understand
A dialect that I am not capable of talking
The words which I don’t write
Has been the base of our love language

Just like a deaf & dumb
I talk to him in a language
Which I believe he still understands
And he only understands

I want him to talk to me & answer me
But I don’t hear him any
May be he is talking
And I don’t understand

It’s not a communication gap
It’s just an intricacy in understanding
With my language & in his silence
Waiting for answers - MY PRAYERS

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In form of prayers we convey our regards to Almighty.
Prayers differ from languages to regions.
But still we all wait for each of our answers...:)

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My man of honor...

2009-09-27T09:21:00.000-07:00

You just walked with me through this long life
With a promise of relationship & love
You have always been at the giving end
And I enjoyed receiving it from you

You inspired me in all ways
And made me a real girl
With me reaching on every stage of life
You looked upon me with pride

With no expectations
You still hold on to my hands
You build all your hopes & faith
And crowned me as your girl

Today I hold your hands
And walk with you
Living your dreams
Not sure if I can live up to that always

I wish I could assure you
Forever & ever
The same firmness of hold
Which I feel in yours

On liberalization of your hold
I wish I will still feel the warmth of secured ness
From you &
In him

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My man of honors - MY DAD..:)

Don't know how..??

2009-08-15T11:23:00.000-07:00

While passing each stage
We look back at our past
Some memories are like fermenting wine
The more you go through them
The more you replenish your soul

Some memories are like stinging needles
The more you try to ignore them & walk

They rise high like tide
And make your each foot step wet on shore

Some memories are wishes
The more you feel touched with them
The more you will feel to take them into your future
Past can pave its way for future
Only if I walk through this present with all & together

With no clue on future
I wish I can walk past this stage
Don’t know how
But I wish to be…

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Certain things cant be explained r expressed..:)

Sweetened Memories...

2009-08-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

From crawling kids
To fighting demons
From playing cousins
To momentous friends
I had known you for years

On different shores
With distance apart
Enjoying every single moment
To each other happiness
I lived every hour for you

My awaited special day
Beside my special one
Was made more special
With all my loved ones

On grace of God
With blessings of all lovely hearts
I walk with him in pride
Hand on hand
As his only bride
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Getting married to a person whom you know very well makes life pleasant. Esp. if you are getting married to your childhood friend. Replenshing memories from a childhood friend to a lifetime companion, its really sweet..:) Inspired from my friend who recently got married to her sweet throb cousin..:)

Savior...

2009-07-12T02:25:00.000-07:00

Taking my own time
I missed my boat ride
Perceiving my own inner self
I lost speed of my lap

With desertion of time
All my efforts to float leave more pain
Now I cannot help myself
Drowning from hollowness

Bounded by demons of prejudice
I lost all lovely paradise
With heavy heart, all my loved ones
Long for my survival

In midst of sea
With no clue of shore
I swim across the lines
Over a blank water & sky

Just like a fairy tale end
I wish for a knight in shining armor
To redeem me from all pain & loneliness

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Inspired from a friend’s life. She kept postponing her marriage and wanted to see great heights in her career. She has achieved her career heights leaving her personal life to bottom. She had been ignorant when it was her turn of game. Now she longs for companionship and desires to get married soon. But the game has turned and ball is in destiny’s court…

Past, Present - Two ways..

2009-06-21T08:46:00.000-07:00

They look very near to me
As I run to grab them
All appear just to be mirage
My mind plays foul game with me
Giving me different interpretation
Of all my past & present

I yearn for all of my past
But couldn’t step back from my present
As present blooms
I wish my past gets gloomed
As more I want my present to flourish
The more my need for past increases

In mirror image
Everything seems stable
But they are just two corners
I am stuck in between alone
Wish I could make a clone
To grab both the ends lone

Wish there was a rewind & forward button
To make my life play still
In the place, how I wished
And where I desired

In this confused phase
I am just walking through all paths
To make way for both my past & present

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Sometimes I feel, my gone days were better than the present & I wish I could get back to them now. Being with parents, fighting with brother, having blast with friends every weekend, lazing around home, bed time coffee. I miss all this now..:(

There are times, I feel that present is best than my other days..:) Good moments – cherishing them to the fullest. I still feel the urge to get back to my old days & enjoy those missed moments but some of my needs & wants hold me back..

That's ME & YOU...

2009-05-23T23:32:00.000-07:00

Throwing all your tantrums
You raise my scale of annoyance
Venting out your anger like explosion
You make me impatience

With you being more adamant
You make me intolerant
Letting out lose words
You make me lose my head

With you becoming more obsessive on yourself
You make me high on frustration
With you being not you
You exploit me in myself

I wish I could meet all your expectations
I wish that you could understand
That sometimes time is not in my favor
It makes me impotent

Nevertheless how you are & what you think
Everyday when you wake up & clear the clouds
From your dome of perception
I will always be there

FOR YOU…

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Thoughts of a brother after a fight with his sister..:)

Friday Madness...

2009-04-25T00:05:00.000-07:00

Landline alarms like
My head caught on fire
Freaking mobile vibrates like
My brain gone through shock waves
Like the high decibel ECG
My hands scribble on the notepad

Just like the clutching street fight
My fingers run through keyboard like mad
Just like the hearing sense of dumb
My ears howl to high & low pitch tones
Just like the crawling snake
My eyes sensor through all mails

Just like a kid waiting for the last hour of class
My mind & heart longs for the end of the day
Everything rushed & pushed to last hour
My body & soul becomes fully drained with no power
I drag my legs to way out
Reach home just like a rugged scout

Every Friday my head to toe are swung by

FRIDAY MADNESS….
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Every Friday at office is like sitting on hot fire log. Last minute work & rush ups of escalation make me mad running behind something for nothing… :))

Realisation...

2009-04-20T09:06:00.000-07:00

Lots of wishes & desires
Melts down in the moments of wisdom

Seconds of realisation, takes the soul for ride
In the court of conscience

In the tug of war of
Me, Mine & Myself
I still
Trust, Believe & Hope...:)
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These thoughts of words came in when I was cherising some best of moments..:) Sometimes the happiest moment make us greedy & we wish for more of it.But all wishes are not granted. Just enjoy & feel the happiness till its blessed..

Uncovered

2009-03-03T07:46:00.000-08:00

Those tingling memories
Freaks out now
With each tear drop
On his recall
The pain replenishes

Celebrated two years
In cloud nine
With fun & joy
Gifted each other
With accessories & toys

In the choice of truth or dare
To all
He told the truth
But never dared to face the truth
With all

All my colored dreams
Faded in a ebb tide
The cloud nine was now
Just a passing cloud

My heart left to bleed
Uncovered…
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Inspired from a friend’s life. She was in relationship with a guy. They got separated because the guy was not able to take it further with his family & relations. Their relationship lost its beauty in fear…She had all her faith on him. She was ready to face the struggle but he was not…

Santa Claus!!!!!!!

2008-12-24T09:13:00.000-08:00

Waiting for the dawn to break
Still in dreams of colors
Where Red & White makes the marvel
Flying across the skies in blue
Angels dance amidst dew

Waiting for the clock to strike down
The final ding dong
Bound by the spell of joy
My moment of surprise
Is still awaited to arise

Twinkling stars fall down
To enlighten you’re come down
The gifted day
With my

SANTA CLAUS!!!!!
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A special day, my christmas day....

Thou in thy..

2008-12-03T08:51:00.000-08:00

Never knew what it was
Ignoring all mind alerts
Just went by heart throbs
And became the victim of crime

Fascinated by looks
Held to sense with passion
The lingering minutes
Melted like immediate ice

Converging shadows
Piercing nerves
Steering energy
Clogged jaws
Locked paws
Vented for explosion

Explosion of thou in thy..

Varanam Ayiram - Review

2008-11-17T20:29:00.000-08:00

Varanam Ayiram is not Gautam Menon’s movie. There is no feel & touch of his smartness. The hat of thriller movie maker fits him so well than something of personal touch stories. The movie can be labeled as Surya’s movie showcasing his full acting value next to Ghajini.

Surya is the real rock star of the movie. He has marveled with his performance in the character of father Krishnan. The actor needs to be appreciated for his efforts of taking keen interest in molding himself for each part of the movie. From the school kid to old man..He is just too good…Next to Surya its simran who just grabs your attention in the movie. She looks gorgeous even in her old looks. After Simran the accolade goes to Sameera Reddy. She has a grace in her beauty & really elegant. This is all about the star cast.

In regards to the storyline, there is nothing much to say. It’s a very simple biography of a normal person who has a positive outlook towards life. It starts from his love life narration till his death. He leaves a great impact on his children in all aspects. He always believes that on your strong desire & motives everything that seems to be wrong can be changed. He imposes these positive notions into his kids. The son just like any other kid becomes so fascinated by his father’s philosophy & approach towards life & finds him to be a real hero. Simple & short story on love towards a father…

The rich picutrization backgrounds have added more splendid beauty to the movie. Cinematographer & the make up man need to be appreciated for beautifying the movie with their smart works.

There are also many flaws in the movie like the whole story mostly spins around father & son relationship, but there is not even a single scene wherein the strong relationship bonding is reflected. The movie just stands out for Surya’s acting & mind engrossing songs..

An ode to love of a father…:-)

Hide & Seek....

2008-10-26T07:05:00.000-07:00

An unconventional thought
Made into shape
Formed a strange dream
Of facts & truths

Watching you with smiles
I stand in quite distance miles
With people around you
I see that happiness in you

Eager for glimpse of your sight
I stand alone out of light
I hold back my tears
And wish to stand near – to you

Just it takes few steps
To reach out to you
But I just hold back
My few steps can disturb
The zone of happiness
That you have made for others

We hide “I” from others
Hide all our individual wish, desire & happiness
We seek out for “others”
Needs, desire & fulfilment

In this life, we just play
Hide & Seek....

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My Horizon...

2008-10-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

Everything is pre-written
With no clue on the happenings
They just take their own forms
And seem little scary – to me

Different thoughts form my day & night
But still I walk through the way of dreams
With hopes & belief
To reach my destiny’s destination

Given fresh sight
My vision is spread in light
Given new feathers
I fly through the clouds of filter

I stand & thrive alone
I burn my candles
To make the realm of all my beloved
Cradle with happiness

What I love & what I like
Does matters
But with me as a crying candle
I dissolve the real me in myself

My happiness is not in mine
I find it in all & make it for others
And that’s my horizon…

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Everyone in this world lives for somebody....
You may only be someone in the world, but to someone else, you may be the world...

Distance...

2008-09-24T09:34:00.001-07:00

With soaring thoughts
You are moving away quite far
With my one step forward
You are making your way backward

Will I be left to stand alone
Because I am not understanding??
Will I be left to kill my conscious
Because I am not thinking??
Will I be left with nothing
Because I am expecting something??

It's not a crime - because
I don't understand
It's not a curse - because
I don't think
It's not a sin - because
I expect

Shattered I stand
Near to you
Close to you
But I feel
You away

In Distance....
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After an argument I felt this....I am not expressive..

We are back...

2008-09-01T09:19:00.000-07:00

Wishing to see our past

We travel down the lane of memories

With budding dreams

With verdant thoughts

We see ourselves grow – as ourselves

Wishing to see our past

We travel down the lane of memories

With little grains of experience

With lights of guidelines

We see ourselves walk – through life

Wishing to see our past

We travel down the lane of memories

With our minds set on different goals

On roads of different destinations

We see ourselves thrive – for success

Wishing to see our past

We travel down the lane of memories

With remembrances in heart

With thoughts in mind

We see ourselves reminiscence

In our album of memories

We see ourselves back

In our paradise lost…

We are back…

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"Pain of missing friends is realised when you are alone watching a gang of friends enjoying in front of you. Seeing them you just want to get back to your old days..."

Rescue me....

2008-08-17T01:12:00.000-07:00

Nourishing my dreams

With positive thoughts

Waited for your reply

For four long years

Whirlwind of thoughts

Screaming mind voice

Triggering emotions

Created the fear

Fear of losing myself

To defend myself

From the suffocating fear

I made my mind

To talk to you for one last time

With hopes of being found

I called you

With lost phrases & withered words

I communicated my heart felt feelings

For my questions

Still I have feelings towards you

Give me some time & a chance to understand you

Why not me??

You just replied

I don't have emotions

I have concerns which I cannot share

Never want to argue

In an urge to bring end to the conversation

And everything else

You asked me "Anything else??"

I stand here alone

With dreams shattered

And desires gloomed

With no nerves to say you

Rescue me from life….

We end the call

Bringing end to all

An Alive soul

Lost with reality

Clinging to just hopes

Waiting for the rescuer

To take me away

From hurting past

Oh Lord!!!!!!

Rescue me…..

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When our hopes & dreams get shattered we lose ourselves to fear. We look forward for a savior to bail us out of the world of fear…Here savior refers to hopes & belief in one self in handling the past…

You being YOU....

2008-08-09T06:34:00.000-07:00

In the crowd of new

You are lost in dark hue

Merging with new waves

You are being extinct

With insignificant thoughts of inspiration

You are losing yourself like perspiration

In the crowd of new

You are lost in dark hue

Drawn towards their fancies

You have lost your way like a gypsy

Always thinking to be like someone

You have lost your own thoughts

In the crowd of new

You are lost in dark hue

Walking behind the deceiving pleasure

Happiness beside you has lost its treasure

Trying to make-over like someone

Remember your shadow shade remains the same one

In the crowd of new

You are lost in dark hue

Realize soon

You are being lost

Before your identity could vanish

Get hold of it

Live & decorate the stage as YOU

The real content of life is only in

You being YOU..

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“No one can play your role more perfect than you”

Each person’s identity is being themselves. But some people want to be like someone & not as themselves. They do things just for the heck of doing it. These kinds of people are losing out their beauty.

Enjoy & do things. Feel the vibe of yourself in you. Real happiness lies in being oneself..

Eternity

2008-08-03T02:10:00.000-07:00

It was a fresh start

But never knew where, when & how it all happened

Passed through many tough bends

But it was an endless end

Shared all seasons of emotions

Like the early hours of spring

Every hour spent was evergreen

Like the longest day of summer

Every day spent was warmth

Like the bountiful month of autumn

Every month spent was colorful memories

Like the freezing year of winter

Every year spent was a pleasant voyage

Shared all day & night

With the delightful laughter & smile

Walked through the bright day of lights

Forgetting all the sorrows of life

Slept through the dark in night

Washing away all our pains

Enjoyed walking in rain

The sweet memories

Evergreen moments

Pleasant voyage

Shines in eternity….

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I enjoy being with my friends..They are just like me...

Bell-O-Jingle

2008-07-29T09:05:00.000-07:00

Bell-O-Jingle made a mingle

A little wonder

Given to me with your tender

Rhythm of string

Makes our love ring

Bell-O-Jingle made a mingle

Saga of our hearts

Sail in the melody craft

With the dazzling chime of hymn

I feel the presence of him

Bell-O-Jingle made a mingle

The tiny tinkle

Just brings back all my twinkle

The colorful bells

Make me feel your spell

Best moments...

2008-07-27T01:06:00.000-07:00

With you near me

Were my best moments

I felt

Enticing caress of breeze

The gleaming lights

Stars in daylight

Soothing day in night

Heavenly happiness

Me in you

With you near me

Were my best moments

I enjoyed

Hand in hand walk

Pleasant long bike ride

Long silent soul talks

Caring embrace

Miss you kiss

Whisper of feelings

With you near me

Were my best moment

I had

Three days of fun

Three days of happiness

Three days of oneness

With you near me

Were my life’s best moments…..

Enchanting Prayer...

2008-07-12T09:39:00.000-07:00

My silent prayer

Everyday I pray

With eyes closed

I look around for you

With hands folded

I await your embrace

My silent prayer

Everyday I pray

Thoughts of you

Engrave me in our world

With you & me in far land

Memories make lanes to green land

My silent prayer

Everyday I pray

I wish for little more space

Just beside you

With tears making my pillows wet

I try to sleep

My bed time prayer

Is never complete

My one tear drop in your recall

Makes them

More enchanting…

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When we miss somebody close to our heart, we would wish to see them or talk to them over phone immediately. Sometimes when we are not able to do both we just sit back & think about them & the time we had spent with them. Sometimes when we are lost in their thoughts, without our realization a tear drop rolls down our cheek...A tear drop can make us realize how special they are to us & how much they mean to us...

Laugh

2008-07-05T00:02:00.000-07:00

Loud & aloud

A sudden burst

Uneven blast

Of thunderous noise

Loud & aloud

Mesmerizing melody

Of all Lords

Blessed by white angels

Loud & aloud

Spreading the charm

In just a wink

The abode of happiness

Miracles Still Happen...

2008-06-29T09:36:00.000-07:00

Miracles are miracle. It’s just a happening but they are always special because all emotions club together when the happening just happens…

Waiting for you was a pleasurable pain

And my wait for you is only on a gain

Every one wish for you in every single prayer

And you can never be a slayer

Rich & poor

Infant & adult

Young & old

All are looking for you

Where are you???

Waiting for you was a pleasurable pain

And my wait for you is only on a gain

Your arrival is a mystery

And washes off everyone’s misery

Strong belief on you gives them more hope

Everyone’s dreams are born without a promise

As dreams can meet up the happy demise only with you

Everyone waits for your arrival

Waiting for you was a pleasurable pain

And my wait for you is only on a gain

You are always out of reach

Your presence can be only sensed & felt

Only by those who are blessed

As you are a special phenomenon

People just don't treat you as a common

Just make their belief true

Miracles Still Happen…

Sleep My Baby Doll...

2008-06-24T10:36:00.000-07:00

Sleep my baby
I am always beside you
Guarding you like an angel
Spreading the lights of tinsel

Sleep my baby
I promise, a fresh start is waiting for you
Your tomorrow will never be a sorrow
And I am sure your day will be blessed by all pure marrow

Sleep my baby
Just close your eyes
You will never fear the devil’s scare
In my embrace of care

Sleep my baby
I will sing lullabies
Your thoughts will rest in peace
My caress will make you feel ease

Sleep my baby
Forget your worries
Trust me miracles will happen
Just like the Alice in wonderland

Sleep my baby
You will have sweet dreams
No one will harm you
When I am near you

Sleep my baby doll
I am always there for you
JUST ONLY FOR YOU....

My Mistake

2008-06-21T08:08:00.000-07:00

We learn from our mistakes. But when our mistakes hurts somebody then its bad.We would have hurt them unintentionally even without our knowledge. When we realize or learn that our mistakes have hurt people close to us, we will then be stormed by very bad guilt feeling..I have too hurt one person very close to me & this poem is influenced only with those guilt thoughts...

It was my mistake
I shouldn’t have sent it
The feeling of you being mine
Made me share every single tine

Your questions of your friend keep it to yourself
Hit my emotions all side & it was unexpected
I have hurt your feelings
And I know my sorry can never console you

I wished to talk to you
But my words have lost their phrase
With the fear that engrossed
I never attended your calls

As I know I will break down
I just ignored your calls
Your continuous phone ring
Made my every nerve feel the sting

I never meant to ditch you
Which I can never do it
Your message like this
Just made me feel the clog

I attended your call at last
Both of our speech was held in pause
I heard your tear of burst
Felt the pain in every inch of my crust

With people around me
I couldn’t react & speak much
Have to forcibly hold back the rushing tears
And talk to you hiding all my fears

Your words “I will never harm you”
Your words “I am sorry for everything”
Shows that my mistakes have hurt you in vein
And have speared more pain

In the play of misunderstanding
We both were made victims
But it was my mistake
To give space for this stage

Trust me
I never disclosed anything
I promise, my confession to you
Purely encloses everything

I will never put you down
My mistake has let me down
Sorry for everything that I have done
I am guilty

It's my mistake….

Special Kids... - Unicorn

2008-06-13T21:20:00.000-07:00

When I see this picture of Unicorn, my mind just lingers through some old thoughts. Near my school, there was an institution for special kids. Unicorn species are special in their own way but they are not treated normal. They are just like those special kids (deaf & dumb) who wish for a normal life....

In the crowd of hundreds

I was always lost in dread

Odd looks & strange faces

Had led down my pace

I was not recognized one among the community

But still wanted to be in unity

Left alone in the lonely mass

I just looked at ways to pass

I can still make it on my own to my destination

With very clear thoughts & ideas of my intention

Let me free to choose my path

And I know I can face all halt

I am not one among the hundred

I am just one out of the hundred

I am not like you & so I am alienated

I am what I am & so I am specially designated

My specialty is not your world normality

Your world normality is little less in me

What is little less in me is not a curse

It's only that I live with a special bless

I love to live

Not live to live

God is always near

And I feel His pure

With skies so near

My star shines clear

And I see my life becoming dear...

I am a Unicorn with extra horn

Let me live my normal life as myself

Life of a Unicorn....

Daddy's Little Girl...

2008-06-07T02:43:00.001-07:00

Everyone were strangers & I was lost

Wondering & looking around as to where I am

So many faces, so many things

In front of which I appeared like tiny nothing

Tears were about to roll down my cheeks

You just smiled at me & kissed my cheeks

You are the first man of my life

Whom I admired & fell in love at first sight

You were strict to make me disciplined kid

But always admired me as a naughty kid

When I came home crying with hurted knees

You embraced & consoled me with tender

You always wanted me to be a winner

But still made me accept things when I was a looser

Made me learn things while I play

And wanted me to enjoy life just like my first day

I liked you as you were like me when you were with me

You liked me because I was like you

You were my little hope of my little heart

To whom I always wished to pour out my entire whine

As a kid I never knew many things about you

But always I enjoyed being with you & I believed you

Always looked for shelter under your eyes

And I did many silly things just to impress you

As years grew older, the distance between us grew

We talk less, we see less & we share less

But the love & space I have for you is never less

Silence rules & my feelings towards you were never let out

You have always been very special

And I will hold on to you like treasure

Man of my first love

To whom my feminine always bows

I am Daddy's little girl...

Smile

2008-06-03T09:26:00.000-07:00

Smile is a simple makeover required for a person to appear more beautiful...

Every hour

Every minute

Every second

Elapses in your tide

Little hurts

Little sorrows

Little tears

Vanishes in your gloss

New happiness

New desires

New wishes

Revive in your spell

Your radiance

Gives elegance

Your embrace

Gives grace

With you close in me

I feel the enlightened beauty of me...

A Touch of Healing...

2008-05-31T08:05:00.000-07:00

I am just walking behind you everyday

To gain your attention for the day

You always praise me for my loyalty

Your every action towards me shows that royalty

You always play with me the game of nagging

And I show my love towards you by wagging

You sometimes seem like never caring

But your hug always says that I am your darling

You take me for a walk

And our souls have a long talk

With you I always sensed the happy hours of paradise

Which I cannot tell you but the feel is very nice

I always feel your feelings

When you are sad with your face down

I try to make you smile with my actions of clown

But I wish to make you feel the comfort ness in my one touch

As I feel in yours in my pains

A touch in which I can show my care

A touch in which I can convey my love

A touch of healing....

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I like my dog a lot. He is a cute kid. He loves me a lot & I have always felt that. When I pamper him a lot, sometimes he looks at me so cutely that I feel that he is so happy & he is trying to convey me something. When i give him a hug, I feel he too feels my happiness...

These lines here are inspired from his actions. Sometimes I feel lost & I will be very quite. My cute little one will come & sit near me. He will keep looking at me for sometime. As if he had understood something he just places his hand on mine & will keep looking at me. Unless I give a smile he will never move from that place & his touch gives me that good feel of heaven...

May be these are the lines my dog wants to convey me...

Rays of Hope

2008-05-31T06:31:00.001-07:00

Just like the drops of dew

I feel so fresh & new

Just like the blooming sunflower

I sense the first day of light in early hour

My thoughts spring out from a bright room

I enjoy my days just like the first day in my mother's womb

While playing around the garden of Montessori

I still learn the true values in life's Monasteries

In worthless race, sometimes I run like mad

But the feel of racing, just makes me glad

In effective speech, sometimes I just don't talk

But the sense of being understood makes my walk

Every passing second, lets me to think of rushing hours

Every rushing hour, lets me to see the breaking days

Every breaking day, lets me to county my months

Every counting month, lets me to see through years - years of living

Little rays of hope

Made my nothing everything

And everything as my thing...

Memories...

2008-05-26T20:05:00.000-07:00

Memories can always make you rejoice or repent. The way they haunt you makes you what you are. The way you treat them takes you where you want.

All creatures with life have some memories…..

Stained with the deep colors of thoughts

Of red, blue, green & black

In the tomb of red wall (heart)

They form together the arc of one color rainbow

In the game of hide & seek of one color

Brightness & darkness take the cop & thief role

And both walk beside me to make me a perfect soul

I try to the spread the colors evenly

And give them different shades

They remain more stained

Little I try to remove the stain complete

It ends in vain making me incomplete

Arc of one color rainbow

Cannot be removed with any waters of purity

They make my tomb with bright & dark shades

In which I live through decades…

Reflection...

2008-05-20T09:42:00.000-07:00

This is about my dreams & reality. Here 'I' means reality & 'You' my dreams...

I see you through

With me in you

You are my part

But still we walk apart

We both reflect the same image

But play it in a different stage

As you sink in the ocean of perfection

I sail through the path of imperfection

In race of winning

Without even a tinge of cunning

We both are still running

To wear the victory of crowning

You live in my thought

And I live in your heart

But in the game of checkmate

We can never be soul mate

With I on your side

You can never hide

I vow to make you as my child

And we both can walk with pride

You & I grow with cohesion

On different illustration

You & I stand as ‘We’

And it makes ‘Me’….

Book of Life

2008-05-19T10:05:00.000-07:00

In my life’s goal
I am not in the lead role
Everyone travel with me to some distance
Draft them with instance – of their life
And just depart playing their part

Autobiography of mine
Written without my conscience
Copy right of my life’s authorship
Is never mine on any hardship
There is nothing I can define
For me to be mine

The beast of good, bad & ugly
Live within me deadly
With no reflections of my thoughts
My book of life
Carries my life
But where am I in it????

My Day..

2008-05-17T00:37:00.000-07:00

With the dawn

My day was born

Rays of light

Make them white

As Happiness bloom

My soul is out of gloom

Spreading across the spree

The breeze enlighten little glee

The smiles flow

And gives me a glow

Love & care cuddle up

They make an enchanting hub

My soul needs some hay - Hope, Love & Care

And with these clay

Everyday I build my day…

Fear

2008-05-15T10:17:00.000-07:00

Every end is unfold

I toddle without a hold

Moving through all bend

I search for the end

As I move towards the shine

Darkness sways mine – myself

With a trembling heart I look around for a savior

To make up my conscience as a warrior

With comrade of mine

Let me run past this time

With re-birth of my happiness from assassination

I wish to make my fear an illusion…

The Journey of Life

2008-05-14T10:08:00.000-07:00

In the journey of miles

I met my life

And decided she to be my wife

With her beside

I never moved a bit aside

With the sparkle of her sight

I felt the green twilight

My brain held a break

And looking at her

I felt great

Directed in a different track

My heart split open the love crack

The force of attraction

Created more commotion – in my heart

As I became senseless

Everything seemed motionless

Reached the station

Is it our destiny’s destination??

I wish to hold her hand

And make my step grand

I wish to walk with you

And I can spend my lifetime in your hue

I wish - We were meant to be together

As one and other

I wish - She led me from journey of miles

To journey of life…..

Touch me not

2008-05-12T10:09:00.000-07:00

Standing far away

With a nearing distance

Looking for the dawn

With my knees bent down

With your rise

My desire raise

With your come down

My soul calms down

With your touch

I feel for your lush

Kiss in my lips

Make them pinkish

In my solace

I need your embrace

With you beside me as one

I can just walk alone

As I wander

Your thoughts ponder

As I look up & gauge

You appear like a mirage

As I move forward

You glide like mist

With my fingers reaching to you

Left me untouched

Why touch me not???

I, Me & Myself as Cindrella King

2008-05-11T06:14:00.000-07:00

Many have this weird question in their mind as to why I have chosen a name like Cindrella

King?? Cindrella is a girl but why is that King??

Hey you all there, don’t come to conclusions on your own. I am not into neutral list. My own expectations & my different intentions have given rise to this name. Let me put it very clearly.

I wanted to be a perfect girl.

But I am a worst kid by myself.

I wanted to handle things carefully.

But I am careless idiot by myself.

I wanted to be more organized.

But I mess up things by myself.

I wanted to be more caring, loving & cute like Cindrella.

But me inspired by all kingship stories wanted to be king by myself.

You know the kind of king of hearts….I felt I can be King of hearts only if I have little bit of Cindrella in me…

Phew & atlast I ended up being Cindrella King…

My Heart Smile

2008-05-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

When I was born
I did make my 'Mom' smile with mine
But I didn't realize my heart smiling

When I grew up & made my first step
I did make my 'Dad' smile with mine
But I didn't realize my heart smiling

When I was given a chocolate to lie
I did make my 'Brother' smile with mine
But I didn't realize my heart smiling

When I share my fun & enjoyment
I did make my 'Friends' smile with mine
But I didn't realize my heart smiling

When I gazed at the funny outlook & behaviour
I did make the 'Stranger' smile with mine
But i didn't realize my heart smiling

When he told me I love you
I did make my 'Sweet One' smile with mine
And I did realize my heart smiling
I felt my smile to be mine

My smile to be in myself & my heart to be mine
Let me share a part of his life's wine...

Tug of War

2008-05-07T09:43:00.000-07:00

The silent fight

Creating most disturbing noise

Caused by the tug of war

Between my mind & heart

Muted speech

Arrested pupil with confused sight

Senseless nerves injected with fright

Frozen breath & diminishing intensity

The tug of war between thoughts & feelings

Your thoughts eating my mind – good & bad

My heart wrapped up with memories of the feel – love & hate

That you bestowed on me

My helpless soul

Lost in the field of rivals

Howling with mystical pain

Longing to overcome this battle

It’s not the war of good & evil

It’s the little hunt of best & worst

The 'Best & Worst' of you in me

There is no end in this rivalry, for the survival of the fittest....

Illusion of Happiness

2008-05-03T09:16:00.000-07:00

Searching for you

In mid of all things

Just wondering if all this is a dream

And I wish I don't miss you even there

You are very near to me

Surrounding me with your spell

But still I am not able to reach you

And it makes me feel like I am in hell

You seem like a illusion

What makes me feel so ??

Is it my desire for you or my expectations on you ??

My desire for you is endless

My expectations on you is limitless

As I do feel myself in me

I wish to realize you in me...

Let me out of this ILLUSION...

My Search for U & Me

2008-04-27T20:04:00.000-07:00

My mind engrossed in a different world

With my thoughts wandering between reality & wonderland

I am not sure where I am

And little is what I know who I am

When will I realize what I am

With my thoughts wandering between reality & wonderland

I am searching for my ultimate soul

Lost in your thoughts of dark hole

When will I get you & be with you as a whole

With my thoughts wandering between reality & wonderland

Dreams of you has left me sleepless

And my search for you & me has become endless

Sleepless dream & endless search had made me mindless

But not hope-less

With my thoughts wandering between reality & wonderland

My body & soul craves for your presence

But destiny plays making your absence

My hidden tears, longing prayers & silent wishes

Are yet to be answered & I hope them NOT TO BE ANSWER LESS.....

Flying High

2008-04-20T07:05:00.001-07:00

Little birds fly high
Making sky as their playground
Up & up above
With no limits to touch & reach
They enjoy the merry go round in groups

A tiny one left behind
Plays alone Makes his own circle of rainbow in the sky
He likes it; he admires it
Belives that a day will come when his rainbow colors will shine more & more
And his lonely path will be more renowned...

Jodha Akbar - Ecstasy of Love

2008-03-15T08:47:00.000-07:00

Jodha Akbar – a well portrayed and a well taken movie. Hats off to Ashutosh Gwariker. The ecstasy of love is conveyed n each and every frame of the movie. The perfect cast had added gracefulness to this movie. Hrithik – the real guy n the real hero. I couldn’t just take off my eyes from him on each and every scene. He looks stunning and really makes you say “wow” in the sword practice scene. His eyes are very expressible than Ash and they glide through the romance door with charm. Ash looks better and her chemistry with Hrithik is awesome.

The delight of love and understanding of the pair are enjoyable. The film alight you with the feel of love…

Girls dream historic hero would be Akbar if he was as handsome as Hrithik…

Fear of Child inside me!!!!!

2008-02-05T08:33:00.000-08:00

The child inside me was afraid of the people surrounding me. She was a very sensitive kid and would get hurted over little things. She experienced more of unpleasant things and didn’t want to share herself and play with the other souls of this beautiful world. She was just a kid and didn’t know much on how to handle things or take things lightly. She dreams a lot, had high hopes on her loved ones and often gets disappointed if they don’t live upto that. She lived by her thoughts. So she always had the thought that all the people whom she liked and loved a lot are good and are the only good people. But when she happened to encounter their counter part she was highly disappointed. These disappointments made her a very secluded child and made her lose hopes on people and some relationship. The poor girl child developed the fear for light. You know why??

Light hides the real colors or the natural glow of people. People, who were very good in the rays of light, were never the same in dark. She was more afraid of light that she never dared to enter the World of Lights. The child inside me was cornered and lost in the dark.

Just like in fairy tale, an angel appeared to her through a misty dust and took her in arms. She comforted her, made her realize that the world is beautiful and there are much more things to enjoy. She named her as the “Fairy of Delight”. Even though she started enjoying the things in this beautiful world, still the child inside me was afraid of lights. She always shuts her eyes to lights when she was alone.

Just like the blooming of a little flower during the spring season, another fairy took her other arms. As she was so used to "Fairy of Delight” shades, she really didn’t feel comfortable with the first touch of this other fairy. But as the days passed, she felt more comfortable and she dared to enter the world of light with this new fairy beside her. Since she entered the world of lights after a long time she felt very shy and found it difficult to get along them. The other fairy comforted her so much that she passed on the rays of lights and took things very lightly. Her fear started diminishing with the other fairy comfort ness. She named this fairy as “Fairy of Sweetie pie”.

The child inside me faced this world with full life and her child ness was brought back by “Fairy of Sweetie pie”. She started loving everything and enjoyed each second. Found pleasantness in no matters of small things and shortly she was living as herself in this beautiful world. Everything seemed unbelievable. She was living in her dream land as “Alice in Wonderland”.

“Fairy of Delight” had left after making the child inside me more comfortable to the deeds of this world. The child inside me was more attached to “Fairy of Sweetie pie” that she never felt the absence of “Fairy of Delight” much. She thought this would continue forever and she would be ruling her dream land with “Fairy of Sweetie pie”.

She enjoys the breeze of care, sweetness of affection and rain of love in her dream land but she can sense the clouds of dark from far are nearing her….The helpless kid looks around to get herself safe and secure under “Fairy of Sweetie pie”, but she appears to be moving far into some misty fog. The child inside me stands there helpless with tears rolling down her cheeks looking at the disappearing image of “Fairy of Sweetie pie”..

The child inside me is now afraid to look at any side, trembles and closes her eyes to “World of Light” & the clouds of dark are nearing her..

Will the child inside me will be lost and cornered once again in dark….Will she open her eyes to the “World of Light” again?? Will she be able to get back to “Fairy of Sweetie pie” ??

The child inside me needs the comfort ness of “Fairy of Sweetie pie”…

Will you come back to me my sweet fairy and will you be mine….

I Need You!!!!!!

2007-12-27T07:51:00.000-08:00

I know I cannot be yours
But still my soul needs you

I know I cannot be your better half
But still my other half needs you

I know am not “the best girl” and I don’t deserver you
But still my “worst girl” needs you

I know I cannot hold on to your hands forever
But still my hand needs you

I know I cannot wet my lips forever with yours
But still my dried lip needs you

I know I cannot crush myself to your torso
But still the little kid inside me needs you

I know I cannot be possessive on you
But still the unruly insecure feel of my heart needs you

I know I cannot tell you all these things when I see you
But still I need you, because

I LOVE YOU MORE THAN MYSELF……..

"Wanted" Musings of My Heart....

2007-11-19T08:30:00.000-08:00

That was a pleasant car ride with my sweetu. He was looking so damn cute in his green striped shirt. I couldn’t take my eyes off from him. It was just a ten minutes silent ride but more pleasant and unforgettable. But my heart was enjoying the amiability of his presence and the loneliness with him.

In the slow ride, when he looked at my eyes I felt so many things. I have written my heart musings here.

I just wanted to hold his hands so tight and just enjoy the warmth of his hold.

I just wanted to tell him lets go for a long drive and I wanted just keeping looking at his sweet face.

I just wanted to give him a hug and whisper in his ears “I love you and just want to be with you forever”.

I just wanted to give him a lovely kiss in his forehead and tell him how much I love him and how much he means to me.

I just wanted to relish in more of that romantic silence moments and just be beside him.

I just didn’t want to get down of the car and go home leaving him.

I just didn’t want to say bye to him.

But I did what all I didn’t want to and I didn’t what all I wanted to.

I missed those “wanted” musings of my heart…..

Why do people write???????????

2007-11-19T07:01:00.000-08:00

Have any one ever thought of the thing that why people tend to write or pour out their thoughts through verses. This prominent question was disturbing me from my very young age. I am not too old now (for your info I am still in my teens). But I have not got the answer yet.

I am not good enough in writing. I mean expressing my thoughts in words. I am not a voracious reader but still I read books to a limit so that it never sucks. I have asked many people the same question “Why do these buggers write a lot and what the hell they get out of it’?” But as usual I got the same answer from the same people of my surroundings.

I have read so many blogs posted by people in many blogging sites. Each blog have its own colour, emotions and creativity. Sometimes the very thought that strikes me while reading these blogs is that how do people get that spontaneity and how do they bring in their or express their very emotions into contents or paragraphs with simple decorative words.

Whenever I think of this, I start to write on a piece of paper the queries that run in mind regarding the same. Accidentally I happened to read them two days back and found the salvation for my big question. I will not say that this is the only reason why people express their thoughts in words, this may be one of the reasons.

People write or express their thoughts in words to make it more effective when they have none near them to listen or share their feelings. In a craze they pull out a paper and pour out their thoughts in a piece of paper just like bursting out to their friends. Sometimes these crazy scripts become memories or even great novels. Who knows??

I have made it a habit to write the daily happenings in my life in a little diary. Today it is something which I do it like a home work ( a good student who loves to do only this homework). But in future, if somebody happens to read that diary, it might be a interesting story for them(absolutely not romantic, but adventurous).

So each and every writing of an individual are treasure able memories and worthy in some other the other way to some people of this universe.